Author Archives: itwillneverhappen2me

My Melancholy

Posted on July 19, 2016 by itwillneverhappen2me

I’m depressed. At least I think I’m depressed. I’ve spent my whole life convincing myself that I wasn’t depressed, so it’s hard for me to recognize it now. Typically I run away when I start feeling trapped. And that’s what … Continue reading →

Posted in Life after 50, Loss, PTSD | Tagged Depression, fear, Grief, life after divorce, loss, Mental Health, mental illness, PTSD | Leave a comment

50 Shades of Self-Acceptance

Posted on February 5, 2015 by itwillneverhappen2me

I have double standards. What’s good for you is not necessarily what’s good for me. When I am talking to a friend or co-worker I am all about encouraging them to see the many shades of experience that color our … Continue reading →

Posted in Color | Tagged Love, Mental Health, Reflection, Relationships | Leave a comment

Two years later…

Posted on May 11, 2014 by itwillneverhappen2me

Two years ago feels like yesterday. That is how clearly I remember Mother’s Day of 2012. I had only been out of the hospital for a few days and didn’t know where were my life was headed. I full on … Continue reading →

Posted in Life After Divorce | Tagged death, Divorce, fear, Grief, life after divorce, loss, Relationships, Suicide | 1 Comment

Third time’s a Charm… I hope.

Posted on April 15, 2014 by itwillneverhappen2me

I never thought I would be here again… I remember reading an article when I was in my 30’s about an actress in her 50’s with an eating disorder and I recall thinking, “No way will that ever be me!” … Continue reading →