Category Archives: Loss

My Melancholy

I’m depressed. At least I think I’m depressed. I’ve spent my whole life convincing myself that I wasn’t depressed, so it’s hard for me to recognize it now. Typically I run away when I start feeling trapped. And that’s what … Continue reading

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Conversations with Matthew

Matthew is my nine year old grandson. In his brief time on earth he has experienced things most adults wish to avoid. He is an old soul. Being a grandparent to Matthew is the only thing in life that has ever … Continue reading

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A Letter to My Ex

I sent this letter on April 14, 2013. I did not receive a response. Recently, new information came to light that has been extremely hurtful. Making me question everything… I feel the need to share this with you, my readers. … Continue reading

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Where the Hell are my Rose colored glasses?

I quit my job. It’s a pattern of mine. There’s no denying it. Every two years or so I quit my job for one reason or another. It wasn’t a big deal in the past as I was married to … Continue reading

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No Wise Words Ever Stopped the Bleeding

I observed a man interrupt a woman sharing her grief from the recent loss of her mother with a platitude. Immediately the woman became quiet. Withdrawn. The man appeared pleased. He thought he had helped. I have seen this happen … Continue reading

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The One Year Anniversary of my Alive Day

It’s not quite 4am and I am awake. I tried to go back to sleep and then remembered what today is. I am not sure what the day is going to bring in terms of emotion but I do know … Continue reading

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The Story of Us and other Random Poetry

I came into this world with a story to tell and have spent my whole finding different ways to share it. One those ways is through poetry and I thought I would share some of it with you today. These … Continue reading

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