Category Archives: Loss

My Melancholy

Posted on July 19, 2016 by itwillneverhappen2me

I’m depressed. At least I think I’m depressed. I’ve spent my whole life convincing myself that I wasn’t depressed, so it’s hard for me to recognize it now. Typically I run away when I start feeling trapped. And that’s what … Continue reading →

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Conversations with Matthew

Posted on October 20, 2013 by itwillneverhappen2me

Matthew is my nine year old grandson. In his brief time on earth he has experienced things most adults wish to avoid. He is an old soul. Being a grandparent to Matthew is the only thing in life that has ever … Continue reading →

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A Letter to My Ex

Posted on July 19, 2013 by itwillneverhappen2me

I sent this letter on April 14, 2013. I did not receive a response. Recently, new information came to light that has been extremely hurtful. Making me question everything… I feel the need to share this with you, my readers. … Continue reading →

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Where the Hell are my Rose colored glasses?

Posted on July 18, 2013 by itwillneverhappen2me

I quit my job. It’s a pattern of mine. There’s no denying it. Every two years or so I quit my job for one reason or another. It wasn’t a big deal in the past as I was married to … Continue reading →

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No Wise Words Ever Stopped the Bleeding

Posted on July 10, 2013 by itwillneverhappen2me

I observed a man interrupt a woman sharing her grief from the recent loss of her mother with a platitude. Immediately the woman became quiet. Withdrawn. The man appeared pleased. He thought he had helped. I have seen this happen … Continue reading →

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